A War I fight Every Day

There is a constant war I fight everyday,

which is not with the world; but within,

I watched the sun rise and people shine,

the night so pleasant, the day so fine,

All seemed untouched from grief and worry,

away from the sins and in their glory,

The evils and bad inside of me,

is now all what I can see,

I wonder if I'm a bad person,

or my suppressed thoughts provoking me,

I don't want to hate myself, I don't want to feel ashamed,

from the imprisonment of vengeance, I urge to set myself free,

I wonder why it gets hard to choose,

Out of what is right and what tempts more,

I wonder how I get so audacious, yet I'm all afraid to lose,

Will try speaking to myself one day,

Will try fixing what is wrong,

Will try restoring my fortitude,

and I know I might take long,

Till then I guess, I am all set to begin,

As there is a constant war I fight everyday,

which is not with the world; but within

You are the one.. I never had‏

I don't know where I found you from,

I don't know what I liked;

I let you in my thoughts,

I let you in my mind.

And all of a sudden you became the most important person,

to share my every little achievement with,

to be the bravest in front of,

to be the happiest with.

I always keep it to myself,

as that's how I want it to be;

To me these thoughts belong to,

In my world I let you spree.

Do I want you to know all this? I doubt,

I fear... what if you pull yourself out,

What if you take away what's mine,

Along with your thoughts, where my heart resides.

I rather not have you.. but can never let you go of my mind,

As it is not you who I own, but your feel.. the sensation that you have left behind.

My world of imagination revolves around you,

And it is dearest to me;

I know it would not be disappointing,

As much as you could be.

Your ignorance towards my fantasies, 

And towards all my secret wishes,

Will never put me down, has never made me feel bad,

You are not obliged, you are not, I understand,

In fact, you are just the one.. I never had.

Stockholm Struck

So lucky I have been! Such an unforgettable and beautiful time I spent here across the sea, on these wide streets, travelling all the way all alone, sitting at the roadside watching the life..away from everything I had been experiencing in my routine and most of all spending the greatest time ever with tone! How can I express that every single detail about this whole journey has been so near to my heart and so amazing that I can think about all those moments and be happy for days! I will miss Stockholm every morning, afternoon, evening and night.  =,(

                                                (View from my window)

And here I go.. to Milano

Day 1: (Tuesday, July 3, 2012) Feels homesick L

Day 2: (Wednesday, July 4, 2012) Day started with a decent breakfast and a search of Vodaphone ricarica i.e. recharge. Got it from the 4th shop I visited. Hopefully I wouldnt have to recharge in my 7 days trip again. Made an old lady from a small laundry shop understand that I want to get 2 shirts ironed RIGHT NOW! was biggy! Did 2013 Men Collection buying at Dolce & Gabbana's head office/ showroom. Amazing!

Day 3: (Thursday, July 5, 2012) Loads of travelling! Meeting 1 to meeting 2 and then straight to Bottega Veneta buying! Spent 60 euros on taxi today. Came back to the room, took a shower and walked all the way to Duomo (cool place :p) discovered new routes. I know more about Italy now.

Day 4: (Friday, July 6, 2012) 2 Buyings 1 meeting! Tired! No energy to go out for a walk. Went to the neighbourhood cafe in rain. Enjoyed watching locals having fun.

Day 5: (Saturday, July 7, 2012) No work today! Walked to Piazza Cavour Park, Duomo (Cathedral in Milan), Vittorio Emanuele, and Castello Sforzesco!  5 down 3 to go.

Day 6: (Sunday, July 8, 2012) Went to Lecco! Had fun.

Day 7: (Monday, July 9, 2012) Saldi Saldi Saldi - means Sale everywhere! but Milan is too expensive!

Quickly wrapped up my last two meetings! It’s all done now. Had Italian Gelato, went to Navigli with a friend, travelled on tram for the first time and had yummy pasta in a local restaurant! Thank you so much Alla! Had a great time.

Day 8: (Tuesday, July 10, 2012) Made the best of the last day. Went to La Scala Museum, inside Duomo church, its roof top and Pinacoteca Di Brera Famous Art Gallery and academy alllllll by myself! I feel proud of myself.

The first day in Milan was horrible! I can't believe I am saying this but I am really going to miss this place =,) spinned 3 times on the bull in Vittorio Emanuele yesterday (google it). Wish to come back again! Caio Caio Milan.